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NaNoWriMo: When the World Comes Crashing Down

Oh Boy. Hello?

Hello, yes let’s start there. It’s been a wild month, and unfortunately not exactly in a good way…

I really wish I could tell you I was keeping up with word count and had faithfully put in my 1,667 words everyday on The Neverland Wars III. I would love to just sort of bluff my way through this, but it wouldn’t take much detective work on your part to find out I’m slinking away from reality, since I have a public NaNoWriMo profile like everyone else (it’s true! just join and you can stalk me / add me as a buddy … if you can find me BWHAHAHAHA… it’s not hard. You know the title of at least one book I’ve written.)

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Long story short, I’m not working on The Neverland Wars Trilogy. I’ve never had such a bad case of demotivation in regard to a story, and despite starting at my title page all day November 1st, ultimately I decided that if I forced myself to fling my unwilling self through this book it would be a disservice to the story and the readers who love it. I’m not exactly sure when I’ll write it, but I need to get a handle on my head before I can steer it back to Neverland.

My life has felt distinctly un-Neverlandy this past year. There are few things less whimsical and carefree than launching a career in a field where the vast majority of people (even the ones who get in!) can make a full-time living off it. Book publishing and its associated responsibilities have me feeling more grown-up than ever, and I’m trying to conflate that feeling with the story I need to finish telling.

The root cause of my mental and emotional imbalances, however, looks like it traces back to a medication I’ve been taking that is having an unintended effect on my mood and brain chemistry. I don’t want to TMI here, so suffice to say I’m going to stop taking the medication and going in for a procedure that will fix me up later this month. The only is problem is that the procedure will be kinda painful, and I’m a horrible pansy when it comes to pain. I’ve never met anyone with a lower pain tolerance than I have (although my sample size might be screwy, because the only people I’ve ever seen seriously talk about pain tolerances are folks in the BDSM community.)

Anways, I’m a little nervy, and trying to process my present feelings, future anxieties, and reflections on the past year the best way I know how… by sitting down and cranking out a 50,000 word novel in a month. I’m behind, I’m struggling, and I’m going to pull this off. Instead of any of the projects I should be working on (and I have a LOT of those these days) I’m writing an allegorical novel about a desert metropolis and a hero in search of galapagian bird hiding in that urban jungle.

I hope everyone else’s NaNoWriMos are going well (it never ceases to amaze me how many of my readers are WriMos…I love it!) and that autumn on a whole is treating everybody well. Wish me luck with this crazy month… if I’ve made it halfway, I can make it through… right?

All my love,

Audrey

2 thoughts on “NaNoWriMo: When the World Comes Crashing Down

  1. Hope you are soon on the mend after your operation Audrey… your health is so important. Everything else in your life ( third novel included) kind of has to take a back seat. Best wishes, PJ xx

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