…it’s nice to have one, but only if you have the right one. What took me the duration of my teenage years to figure out about personal relationships, I realized in the course of a year with my professional relationships. I just terminated my contract.
Yesterday morning I was on track to publish an ebook on Valentines Day. Now, I’m back to square one.
I should be happy, I know. I was unsatisfied with the editing job, had limited confidence in their ability to market and promote, thought they were spreading their resources too thin over too many authors, and didn’t feel like my feedback was getting integrated into the cover art design. Plus, they were going to take a huge cut of the revenue and any book advance or subsidiary deals.
Still, after a solid year of negotiations and ups and downs, I can’t shake the selfish, naive feeling that I’ve earned a little taste of success. Had I known that this book contract was going to crumble into nothing, I would have promoted Dr. Derosa’s Resurrection better. It’s frustrating to look back on all the choices and decisions I made on the assumption that I was going into business with a competent literary agency.
I don’t suppose I really want to talk about it, but I thought I would let you know. Since I signed that contract I have built up a little WordPress following, and I’m grateful tot he forty or so of you who do read what I post. I guess it’s back to the drawing board to start anew with 2014. I’ll keep building my online following, send out a fresh wave of query letters, and maybe just self-publish an ebook. If I could have done it with them, I’m quite sure that I can do it on my own.
That’s a lot to think about though, and right now I think I just need to regroup. It has been a real roller-coaster ride, and I need to regroup.
I love you.